Quantum Life

“If your heart is pure then you won’t be afraid of anything, if there is a thief inside, you won’t be able to make an eye contact.” - Anonymous

Well I don’t think so this holds universally, at least not in my case (sometimes), I know..… I know for sure that my heart is pure there is no thief inside me and I don’t expect anything in return still, I can’t able to make eye contact with girls in our first meet and sometimes even in third and fourth meet till I get comfortable with her, this really troubling me now days cause in our company lots of pretty girls has recently joined and I’m simply avoiding them cause of same reason, they must thinking what kind jerk is he, who don’t even say hello and hi…..

May be there is some fear but what is that, I’ve intro inspected many time. If there is really a fear then I needed to find it and bust it cause in our business we got to interact with females frequently and they all are really smart who can sell you in the middle of the road and you don’t even realize it.

Last night after dinner, I went to my colleagues room instead of going straight to my room and reading out something as per my daily routine, there we discussed everything about our company, what should we do to improve our revenues, what should we do to tackle our bosses shitty patty tricks. And how we can add value and get a good leap in market etc etc…..you know all those craps…..

Later I came back with light head coz u feel that way after vomiting out your whole frustration in your company policies and your boss.

And from no where a thought struck me that why should I continue with this blog coz I’m not enjoying at all writing here or writing in any other blog. Then I thought I got to merge all my blogs into one and leave this anonymous blogging habit which is just inculcating in way of reinforcing into habit.

Then with strong point of merging all blogs I went to bed, I woke up at 4:47 AM, went for Jogging and all felt good as always. Got Paratha in breakfast ummmmmmm was good. Later I sat down in front of my office comp, I checked out my emails and blogs which I generally do after 12:00 pm, following time boxing and time management, but today I did changed my usual routine may be the effect of last nights Steve pavlina’s How mind really works article or due to my strong concern about merging all my blogs into single one.

When I went through new comments I felt really great, I changed my mind of deleting this blog and keep it for some more time.

Then I enquired – WHY???? Why I changed my last night decision. Coz I’m not at all enjoying anonymous blogging, many times I wrote many posts and later deleted them…..all…. WHY????

Later I went to No One my oldest blog friend…. She always gives some inspiration about anonymous blogging and inspiration about keep writing, I usually don’t write long posts or comments but when ever I go to her Café Imagination, some how my mind stimulates to pen down my thoughts.

After writing a big comment in Café Imagination, I found that some where in my subconscious there is sense of expression at the same time my mind wanted to read out these expressions by others might be to satisfy its ego….. ……who knows but one thing for sure is that as long as people keep reading this blog I’ll go on writing. That’s why when this morning I saw three new comments I changed my mind. So keep reading and commenting…….

I think, it don’t..

this is my anonymous blog and there is no way to find out who am I until i reveal my self, then i thought what if i publish my pictures, will it effect my anonymity

I guess it won’t

The Fear of unknown holds us back from our destiny (Paulo Coelho in Alchemist)

But I recently felt for Support of unknown

Support of unknown  is important than someone known, because it’s really hurts when that known support go away or breaks off, but in case of unknown there is a little expectations and when we get some sort of support emotionally or mentally we feel a great deal of meeting expectations even if that comes in few words.

Thanx to No One